Today is Friday, February 29, 2008. Yesterday was Thursday; remember what I said about Thursday? Well I’ll tell how things went on Thursday.
I finally meet Geremy. We had pizza for lunch, then, we went to Multiplaza del Este to watch a movie but all of them were after 2:00 and it was just 1:00. That’s why we decided to go somewhere else. He took me to a place near Escazú; once there, we kissed and touched each other. Of course I did my thing; but he was driving because if we parked someone could get there. Finally, we went into a motel…
Once there, we started playing on the bed. We took our clothes off very slowly. We kissed such lunatics! He went down kissing every inch of my body, I did the same on him. But things turned hotter…
He asked me if I was ready for being fucked, I told him: “Yes, I guess I am…” on that moment I was totally frightened, I had no idea about what was coming. He did it very gently, what the pain was too much for me. I asked him to take it out. Instead, I tried to fuck him. I have to say that I actually enjoyed fucking him, but then he tried again. It isn’t as funny as in porno! It’s actually very painful, I felt nothing but pain: no excitement, no fun. Well, I couldn’t have made him paid for the lunch and the motel without giving him some of me. Now, I realize I’d better had paid for the pizza…
But, I haven’t told the worst part of all of this (Maybe the only one). I know I should have never done it, but what can I do now? Here I go: We didn’t use rubbers. That’s it, as written. Last night I didn’t have dinner because I offered it to God (How can I get God into this?) hoping He gets me out of risk, I’m so scared of any disease. My head is a mess! I can’t think of any other idea. I know VIH is detected after six months of contracted. I don’t know what to do; I can’t even talk to anybody because I neither can tell I’m gay.
I’m just praying. It’s the only thing I can do, and also the most powerful. Oh my God. Please, help me! I know I’ve been such bad sons, but, please, help me! I will also offer my favorite TV program: Charmed. Please my Lord, help me! Take me out of all this!
I finally meet Geremy. We had pizza for lunch, then, we went to Multiplaza del Este to watch a movie but all of them were after 2:00 and it was just 1:00. That’s why we decided to go somewhere else. He took me to a place near Escazú; once there, we kissed and touched each other. Of course I did my thing; but he was driving because if we parked someone could get there. Finally, we went into a motel…
Once there, we started playing on the bed. We took our clothes off very slowly. We kissed such lunatics! He went down kissing every inch of my body, I did the same on him. But things turned hotter…
He asked me if I was ready for being fucked, I told him: “Yes, I guess I am…” on that moment I was totally frightened, I had no idea about what was coming. He did it very gently, what the pain was too much for me. I asked him to take it out. Instead, I tried to fuck him. I have to say that I actually enjoyed fucking him, but then he tried again. It isn’t as funny as in porno! It’s actually very painful, I felt nothing but pain: no excitement, no fun. Well, I couldn’t have made him paid for the lunch and the motel without giving him some of me. Now, I realize I’d better had paid for the pizza…
But, I haven’t told the worst part of all of this (Maybe the only one). I know I should have never done it, but what can I do now? Here I go: We didn’t use rubbers. That’s it, as written. Last night I didn’t have dinner because I offered it to God (How can I get God into this?) hoping He gets me out of risk, I’m so scared of any disease. My head is a mess! I can’t think of any other idea. I know VIH is detected after six months of contracted. I don’t know what to do; I can’t even talk to anybody because I neither can tell I’m gay.
I’m just praying. It’s the only thing I can do, and also the most powerful. Oh my God. Please, help me! I know I’ve been such bad sons, but, please, help me! I will also offer my favorite TV program: Charmed. Please my Lord, help me! Take me out of all this!
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